[For a brief moment, Deckerd can only stare at the words with the most baffled expression on his face. Then it is as if a switch has been toggled in his head as a very sudden and very overwhelming understanding clicks into place, or at least enough of it that Deckerd feels lightheaded with a rush of guilt and horror. Look at what he has done to your brother, Shado]

[He stares and he stares and he stares. Then, he types]

...Earlier, I cut myself off from saying something that has regularly been on my mind since that day.

'Sometimes, I do wonder if I am the same person at all, or simply a very convincing understudy.'

I think we are approaching the same point from different directions, and... I am deeply sorry for the part I have played in bringing you to it. This was your chance at peace.